"hot-headed???"

you wiped your wet hands to me..
and i wiped it back to your polo..
then it seems like you got mad at me..
i talked to you sincerely..
but you never said anything else, but "wala"..
what's wrong with you??
i hate it when you do that..
when we were walking, i tried to cheer you up..
but it only turned out like i was talking to a wall..
shit..
what do you want me to do??
that's why I left you alone..
maybe it's better to be far for sometime..
so that you would realize how angry i am..
really angry...
hays!

this is the moment..

have not been posting here since last year..
now im a fourth year student..
hmmmmm..so fast..
everything's happening without notice..
what could i say..
"history repeats itself?"
wahahaha..
yah..it did..
its proven..
when you do the same mistake, you tend to experience the same consequence..
i hate it..really..
i dont know why, but i trusted again..
so why you're leaving me again behind?
shit!!!
that's all i can say to you..
i look stupid..
i know it..
recently, we are not talking..
i dont even know why..
maybe its better off this way..
do whatever you want to do..
and ill go on with my life..
as always..
i cant be like this for long..
i cant take it anymore..
now i have a lesson learned..
"never do the same mistakes repeatedly.."

before new year...

ok...so dis is my last blog before this year ends..
ive decided to leave all my heartaches behind and start all over again..
without him..
maybe we are really not meant to be..
and i will accept it..
after he had hurt me, i will not let him do it again..
i dont want to be hurt anymore..
it cam from him that he was not that responsible to fulfill my expectations..
ok, i get it..


maybe i should not wait anymore..
the problem was not the time..
it was him...
im tired of everything..
ive been expecting for him to come..
and yet, i end up being the fool and the one hurt.,,

im sorry for keeping him expecting that i love him..
i conclude that it was just infatuation and it would be easier to let go than before..
he's right..
there are a lot more guys who would be responsible and could make me happy..
it wasn't him...

anyway, thanks for being in my life..
ill never forget u...

th reasons...

ok...
and so i found out the reason why God did not let me fall to another guy...
i get...
i now understand..
at first i thought, it was the end..
i thought i am the only one suffering..


i was wrong..
he was hurt...
i felt it..
im sorry for judging you..
and thanks anyway coz u made me happy once agen..
i just hope u wont slip away agen without any notice...


ahmmmmm...
i hope this would last...
maybe im happy when it comes to matters of love..

but im not happy actually..
knowing i lost my cousin..
i miss her..
i feel guilty coz i was never good to her..
im sorry couz...
im really am sorry.........

weird but happy...

I heard about it..
he doesn't love me anymore..
but i feel different to that...
as i had observed him, he loves..
maybe im in a wrong feeling,,..
but what happens now makes me happy so much....
he is so caring about me....
and in return, i am he same way as he is...

i hope this would continue and would not change...
i love him very much...
God, please let me be happy with him...

i know it would happen...

as expected....
she did it..
falling in love with him...
i dont know how to react on it..
but one thing is sure...
it hurts...
so much...
its as if i was hit by a car...
a sudden struck dat made my world stop..
everything was fine before i knew about it..
we had just fixed our conflict..
only to find out that shocking news...

how could you do this to me?
you know i would be hurt!!!
i know im not that important to you...
so there would be no reason to think about my feelings..
fine,.,
sorry if im a hindrance to the two of you...


i will not bother you again...

and for him, tnx for the past attentions and time...

we loved each other but maybe it is now too late...

sorry sims to be the hardest word...

sorry?
for what??
i appreciate saying this to me...

but i dont get it..

why you have to say this, yet i dont know its purpose..

you told me someone told you my hidden complaints...

could it possibly be about the group or just me???????

anyways, thanks for the effort but to tell you frankly, its kinda late....

ive hurt too much...

you have caused me too much pain that a word cannot erase...

im sorry...