my internet diary

Friday, November 24, 2006

weird but happy...

I heard about it..
he doesn't love me anymore..
but i feel different to that...
as i had observed him, he loves..
maybe im in a wrong feeling,,..
but what happens now makes me happy so much....
he is so caring about me....
and in return, i am he same way as he is...

i hope this would continue and would not change...
i love him very much...
God, please let me be happy with him...

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

i know it would happen...

as expected....
she did it..
falling in love with him...
i dont know how to react on it..
but one thing is sure...
it hurts...
so much...
its as if i was hit by a car...
a sudden struck dat made my world stop..
everything was fine before i knew about it..
we had just fixed our conflict..
only to find out that shocking news...

how could you do this to me?
you know i would be hurt!!!
i know im not that important to you...
so there would be no reason to think about my feelings..
fine,.,
sorry if im a hindrance to the two of you...


i will not bother you again...

and for him, tnx for the past attentions and time...

we loved each other but maybe it is now too late...

Monday, November 13, 2006

sorry sims to be the hardest word...

sorry?
for what??
i appreciate saying this to me...

but i dont get it..

why you have to say this, yet i dont know its purpose..

you told me someone told you my hidden complaints...

could it possibly be about the group or just me???????

anyways, thanks for the effort but to tell you frankly, its kinda late....

ive hurt too much...

you have caused me too much pain that a word cannot erase...

im sorry...

Monday, November 06, 2006

the big revelation....

rhodolf_06 (11/5/2006 3:27:35 AM): elow gandng gabi sau
rhodolf_06 (11/5/2006 3:28:02 AM): alam mo pam mhal n kta
rhodolf_06 (11/5/2006 3:28:17 AM): khit iba ang mhal u!!!
rhodolf_06 (11/5/2006 3:28:40 AM):alm ko nmn n ala me pgasa sau eh!!!!!

whoa....
its really mind buggling..
i never imagined he would love me so much...
i was shocked but i appreciate it...
however, i cannot love him..
i dont want to tie myself up again..
im not yet ready for a new one...
i hope he could understand..
maybe we are not really meant for each other...
i just want to thank him for making me feel valuable...
its just up to this..
friends...
im really sorry...
but my heart is that is now broken wants to feel alone for a awhile...
im really sorry and i hope you could find that right girl that could love you that i cannot do...

Saturday, November 04, 2006

anader..

today, november 05,2006...

he told me he loved mo so much..

i dont know how will i react on it.,..

i was flattered but im having worries..
worries that i could hurt him again...
frankly speaking, i still love the other gut not him..
could he be the key so that i could forget him?/

i hope so..

coz thanks to him, i felt valuable...
unlike the other one, i feel...


useless....

Friday, November 03, 2006

im home..

at last, im finally home..i was just from a long trip...actually i feel dizzy right now but i just want to make a blog first... i missed everything here.... my friends and especially my daily routine... it was a big change to live on another place... well, that's just it... 4 days is over and im back... but if im to choose where i would want to stay, i would rather choose that place than here... because there, im not hurt...