before new year...

ok...so dis is my last blog before this year ends..
ive decided to leave all my heartaches behind and start all over again..
without him..
maybe we are really not meant to be..
and i will accept it..
after he had hurt me, i will not let him do it again..
i dont want to be hurt anymore..
it cam from him that he was not that responsible to fulfill my expectations..
ok, i get it..


maybe i should not wait anymore..
the problem was not the time..
it was him...
im tired of everything..
ive been expecting for him to come..
and yet, i end up being the fool and the one hurt.,,

im sorry for keeping him expecting that i love him..
i conclude that it was just infatuation and it would be easier to let go than before..
he's right..
there are a lot more guys who would be responsible and could make me happy..
it wasn't him...

anyway, thanks for being in my life..
ill never forget u...

th reasons...

ok...
and so i found out the reason why God did not let me fall to another guy...
i get...
i now understand..
at first i thought, it was the end..
i thought i am the only one suffering..


i was wrong..
he was hurt...
i felt it..
im sorry for judging you..
and thanks anyway coz u made me happy once agen..
i just hope u wont slip away agen without any notice...


ahmmmmm...
i hope this would last...
maybe im happy when it comes to matters of love..

but im not happy actually..
knowing i lost my cousin..
i miss her..
i feel guilty coz i was never good to her..
im sorry couz...
im really am sorry.........